Monday, March 18, 2013

3 Fears

30 Things My Kids Should Know About Me
(Topic #2- what are 3 fears you have and how did they become fears?)

I honestly don't really know where to start with this one. None of my fears are reallyso big that I let them eat me alive.

#1My biggest most legit fear would be losing my kids or husband before I think it's their time.In my perfect world I would never have to outlive my children. God willing I'd somehowfind the strength to live but not a day would go by that I didn't think of them/cry for them. As far as losing my husband goes....well...I'm not sure my kids would be able to pull me out of bed ever again.Stephen (daddy) and I have had such an insane chemistry since the day we started talking.I knew that Stephenwas who I was going to marry when we first starting seeing each other. We dated for about 7 months when I ended things after a confusing missions trip. The 7-8 months we were split up and not in any form of contactwere the most challenging times I'd ever dealt with in my life. This is when I really hit an all time low and knew that I clearly was grieving from the loss of someone I justcouldn't live without.My kids and my husband are what keep me going...they are what make me ME. 

As for 2nd and 3rd fears....they are just silly little things!

#2SURGERIES!I know what you are thinking..."but she's had a c-section before and her tonsils removed!"Yes I've been through it before and most likely going through it again with Judah...but it's never somethingthat becomes "fun" or "easy". My recovery with Malachi was SO rough that I'm terrified to go throughall that again. The spinal tap was one of the most painful things about delivery, next wouldbe the coughing/sneezing or trying to get out of bed with a fresh incision, and then there's the fact that ittook me a whole YEAR to fully recover from Malachi. So no...I'm not looking forward to another surgery...just the precious baby that'll come out of it.
#3Snakes and Sharks.I am SO fascinated by tv shows about snakes/sharks but NEVER want to actually run into one.The closest I've come to a snake are other peoples pet snakes. So basicallyjust corn snakes which aren't that intimidating.I remember mine and dad's first trip to Hawaii where we went snorkeling in a so called "low key" far as sharks went. Just in case though the guy at the surf shop told us what NOT to do or TO do in case we ran into one:don't pee in the water..they like itif the shark starts to come after you...don't try to swim away. Face the shark and flip your fins up to let them know you are "just as big" and not going to be an easy fight.basically don't freak out and act like a blubbering idiot.Stay in control and let survival mode kick in if it comes down to la la la off dad and I go to the suggested spot and sure enough about 30 minutes into our snorkeling adventure of swimming with sea turtles and tropical fishI notice a shark directly below us swimming back out to sea.Thankfully it looked like a young harmless (HOPEFULLY!) tiger sharkthat wasn't more than 6 feet long and about as wide as me.When I got back to shore my adrenaline was rushing from how exciting that had been butI also noticed three things.#1 we were swimming with sea turtles ( a favorite shark snack)#2 we were swimming along a reef jetty (a favorite place for sharks to find fish to eat)#3 there was a local who was spear fishing just around the other side of the jetty passing us frequently to get to shore(fish blood trails)were were in the right place at the right time apparently =]
All in all...I think I'm still more terrified of snakes than sharks...I would go swimming in a tropical place a million more times before ever putting myself in asnake environment.


Monday, March 11, 2013

20 Random Facts About Me

So one of the blogs I follow found a "30 things my kids should know about me" challenge. The point is to create a list over 30 days (or however long you want it to take you) and hang onto it for keepsakes to give to your kids. I think I will print off what I type up and find some way to scrapbook it along with random pictures.

1. I'm a perfectionist. I usually spend HOURS on a project trying to get it just right.
2. My favorite colors are mustard yellow and pea green.
3. I love art in all forms. I've secretly wanted to take it on as a career but I'm too scared to try and master any of it.
4. I refuse to watch scary movies. Who likes to purposely give themselves nightmares?!
5. I'm a pretty sensitive person but not a lot of people realize that.
6. I am one of the most passionate people you will ever meet. Every emotion I feel about something is always to the extreme...never mediocre. My anger is a lot harder to control because of this.
7. Tulips are the ONLY flower I like/will strive to keep alive longer than a day.
8. I love sports and that I can enjoy them alongside your dad. I am by no means a girly-girl.
9. I'd like to live in a cottage some day. There's something so quaint and peaceful about them.
10. I could sit and down a whole bag of salt n' vinegar chips if my mouth would let me.
11. My favorite animals are Leopards, Tigers, and Sharks.
12. I love to knit, crochet, and sew. Your dad laughs because he hadn't realized how much of an old soul I am.
13. The first concert I ever went to was New Found Glory.
14. I will NEVER go hunting. I absolutely refuse to shoot animals unless it's a snake.
15. Fried cheese and raisins are my least appreciated foods.
16. I don't believe in luck/karma. Just God.
17. I dislike rap music with a strong passion.
18. I am only ticklish on my bones.
19. I had braces for 2 1/2 years.
20. Everything is all fun and games to me which means I don't get embarrassed. This will probably haunt you as teenagers!

Here is the list in case you'd like to do it as well!

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your spouse.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. What’s the hardest part of growing up?
14. Describe 5 and weaknesses strengths you have.
15. Describe when you knew your spouse was the one or how I fell in love.
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What do you think your spouse loves most about you?
19. How did you feel the moment you became a parent?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. Describe your relationship with your parents.
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. What’s your favorite holiday and why?
24. What’s your favorite and least favorite thing about parenthood?
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What was it like to be pregnant with Malachi (and Judah)?
28. What’s your favorite quality in your spouse?
29. What are your hopes and dreams for your prosperity?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.