So as all of you know Stephen and I are currently growing our second child. I have been in awe ever since I found out a week ago and STILL don't quite know how to put it into words. The desire to carry another child has been on my heart for a LONG time as many of my close friends know. Stephen can vouch for how many tears have been shed over the past year thinking I ruined my body and wondering why I couldn't be fertile like everyone else getting pregnant at the drop of a hat.
For anyone who doesn't know...it is an EXTREMELY emotional time hoping/praying for something to happen and having to wait an entire calendar year for it.
The first thought that came to my head after reading a positive pregnancy test was that I was just SO relieved to know nothing was wrong with me. THEN an overwhelming sense of joy came over me and I probably thanked God for the rest of the day for fulfilling the desires of my heart. There is just something so special about God doing things in HIS timing and also knowing he trusts me to raise and shepherd yet another one of his creations.
Stephen and I both are excited to expand our love, see Malachi grow up with a companion, and find out who God has made this new little person to be. I'm excited to find out the gender but more so just excited for it to be August already.
Something I've noticed this pregnancy that I didn't really go through with Malachi, is how much fear is in our society. I can't believe how much fear and doubt floats around in peoples heads/the internet based on how far along you are. I believe that there are precautions people should take (don't get me wrong) but since when is it a "normal/smart" thing to hide your pregnancy until you know it's a "safe" one? I guess Stephen and I are both just a rare type of people that will believe and celebrate until you give us a firm reason not to.
God is in control of our fate and we don't want to pretend to have a false sense of control with what happens during this pregnancy. We want our friends and family to laugh AND cry with us. So whatever may happen just know we want you to be included! And right now we have every reason to be beyond excited so get excited!
We just want to say THANK YOU to everyone who has shared in our joy and congratulated us. It means a lot to know we have others out there just as enthused as we are!