Wednesday, June 1, 2011
So I have been awake since 6:30 and just can't go back to sleep! (for me that's a real tragedy!) I'm kind of excited that I can't stop thinking about this because I know a lot of people check facebook in the morning and I'm hoping what I have to share will help inspire you today considering the day has just begun.
So a couple of days ago Stephen and I had plans for the day and regarding those plans, he had asked me NOT to do something. Because I felt like he was being completely childlike and had absolutely no reason to feel the way he did, I disregarded his wishes because I didn't understand his intentions. I was caught up thinking "well he's just thinking through blue and I'm thinking through pink right now." (love and respect small group insider...go through it I recommend it lol.) You see I was feeling a lack a of trust from his words/actions which hurt and I couldn't understand why he was thinking the way he was. I was going on and on about how he didn't understand how he was making me feel and we were both in the wrong and blah blah blah....let me just pause and share some scriptures with you.
(AMP) 1 Timothy 2:11 "Let a woman learn in quietness, in entire submissiveness."
(AMP) Ephesians 5:22-23 "Wives, be subject (be submissive and adapt yourselves) to your own husbands as [a service] to the Lord. For the husband is head of the wife as Christ is the Head of the church, Himself the Savior of His body."
Now I could go on and on listing scripture where God is telling me what my role as Stephen's wife is, but He instructs one simple thing in each of them...SUBMIT! I was SO caught up in who was wrong in my eyes that I failed to see where I went wrong. It doesn't matter how untrusted or confused I felt, I should have listened to my husband and did what he had asked. When I chose not to listen to Stephen, I not only disobeyed him but God. I've always struggled with pride but hey, it's really easy to when society has perverted and misconstrued God's word and commandments so much that most people entering marriages these days (including me) think submission is for the weak or old days. Let me just tell you right now that the God I serve is the same today, as he was yesterday and even 2000 years ago! Nothing has changed! There is no room for pride in a marriage and I'm mainly speaking to women right now where our culture has let feminists come in and speak differently over us! It is NOT my job to prove my husband's judgement wrong and even if there are times where he is out of control I am STILL to submit to him!
I'm kind of disappointed that after nearly 22 years of my life, I'm just NOW understanding God's intentions for me as a woman and even better as a wife. It is no ones fault but mine. God has so many treasures for us in His word if we'd just take the time to crack open our Bibles. Don't...I repeat myself DO NOT let this world give you your identity. Your marriage, and your life, can sure go terribly wrong when you're not living the role God had laid out for you. I don't know about you, but boy do I really need God as the center of my marriage. It is SO much more enjoyable when He is. If you've struggled in this area, just take time right now or some time today to ask God and your husband for forgiveness. Keep pressing into God's word and what He has for you!