Monday, March 18, 2013

3 Fears

30 Things My Kids Should Know About Me
(Topic #2- what are 3 fears you have and how did they become fears?)

I honestly don't really know where to start with this one. None of my fears are reallyso big that I let them eat me alive.

#1My biggest most legit fear would be losing my kids or husband before I think it's their time.In my perfect world I would never have to outlive my children. God willing I'd somehowfind the strength to live but not a day would go by that I didn't think of them/cry for them. As far as losing my husband goes....well...I'm not sure my kids would be able to pull me out of bed ever again.Stephen (daddy) and I have had such an insane chemistry since the day we started talking.I knew that Stephenwas who I was going to marry when we first starting seeing each other. We dated for about 7 months when I ended things after a confusing missions trip. The 7-8 months we were split up and not in any form of contactwere the most challenging times I'd ever dealt with in my life. This is when I really hit an all time low and knew that I clearly was grieving from the loss of someone I justcouldn't live without.My kids and my husband are what keep me going...they are what make me ME. 

As for 2nd and 3rd fears....they are just silly little things!

#2SURGERIES!I know what you are thinking..."but she's had a c-section before and her tonsils removed!"Yes I've been through it before and most likely going through it again with Judah...but it's never somethingthat becomes "fun" or "easy". My recovery with Malachi was SO rough that I'm terrified to go throughall that again. The spinal tap was one of the most painful things about delivery, next wouldbe the coughing/sneezing or trying to get out of bed with a fresh incision, and then there's the fact that ittook me a whole YEAR to fully recover from Malachi. So no...I'm not looking forward to another surgery...just the precious baby that'll come out of it.
#3Snakes and Sharks.I am SO fascinated by tv shows about snakes/sharks but NEVER want to actually run into one.The closest I've come to a snake are other peoples pet snakes. So basicallyjust corn snakes which aren't that intimidating.I remember mine and dad's first trip to Hawaii where we went snorkeling in a so called "low key" far as sharks went. Just in case though the guy at the surf shop told us what NOT to do or TO do in case we ran into one:don't pee in the water..they like itif the shark starts to come after you...don't try to swim away. Face the shark and flip your fins up to let them know you are "just as big" and not going to be an easy fight.basically don't freak out and act like a blubbering idiot.Stay in control and let survival mode kick in if it comes down to la la la off dad and I go to the suggested spot and sure enough about 30 minutes into our snorkeling adventure of swimming with sea turtles and tropical fishI notice a shark directly below us swimming back out to sea.Thankfully it looked like a young harmless (HOPEFULLY!) tiger sharkthat wasn't more than 6 feet long and about as wide as me.When I got back to shore my adrenaline was rushing from how exciting that had been butI also noticed three things.#1 we were swimming with sea turtles ( a favorite shark snack)#2 we were swimming along a reef jetty (a favorite place for sharks to find fish to eat)#3 there was a local who was spear fishing just around the other side of the jetty passing us frequently to get to shore(fish blood trails)were were in the right place at the right time apparently =]
All in all...I think I'm still more terrified of snakes than sharks...I would go swimming in a tropical place a million more times before ever putting myself in asnake environment.


Monday, March 11, 2013

20 Random Facts About Me

So one of the blogs I follow found a "30 things my kids should know about me" challenge. The point is to create a list over 30 days (or however long you want it to take you) and hang onto it for keepsakes to give to your kids. I think I will print off what I type up and find some way to scrapbook it along with random pictures.

1. I'm a perfectionist. I usually spend HOURS on a project trying to get it just right.
2. My favorite colors are mustard yellow and pea green.
3. I love art in all forms. I've secretly wanted to take it on as a career but I'm too scared to try and master any of it.
4. I refuse to watch scary movies. Who likes to purposely give themselves nightmares?!
5. I'm a pretty sensitive person but not a lot of people realize that.
6. I am one of the most passionate people you will ever meet. Every emotion I feel about something is always to the extreme...never mediocre. My anger is a lot harder to control because of this.
7. Tulips are the ONLY flower I like/will strive to keep alive longer than a day.
8. I love sports and that I can enjoy them alongside your dad. I am by no means a girly-girl.
9. I'd like to live in a cottage some day. There's something so quaint and peaceful about them.
10. I could sit and down a whole bag of salt n' vinegar chips if my mouth would let me.
11. My favorite animals are Leopards, Tigers, and Sharks.
12. I love to knit, crochet, and sew. Your dad laughs because he hadn't realized how much of an old soul I am.
13. The first concert I ever went to was New Found Glory.
14. I will NEVER go hunting. I absolutely refuse to shoot animals unless it's a snake.
15. Fried cheese and raisins are my least appreciated foods.
16. I don't believe in luck/karma. Just God.
17. I dislike rap music with a strong passion.
18. I am only ticklish on my bones.
19. I had braces for 2 1/2 years.
20. Everything is all fun and games to me which means I don't get embarrassed. This will probably haunt you as teenagers!

Here is the list in case you'd like to do it as well!

1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and how they became fears.
3. Describe your relationship with your spouse.
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. What’s the hardest part of growing up?
14. Describe 5 and weaknesses strengths you have.
15. Describe when you knew your spouse was the one or how I fell in love.
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What do you think your spouse loves most about you?
19. How did you feel the moment you became a parent?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. Describe your relationship with your parents.
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. What’s your favorite holiday and why?
24. What’s your favorite and least favorite thing about parenthood?
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What was it like to be pregnant with Malachi (and Judah)?
28. What’s your favorite quality in your spouse?
29. What are your hopes and dreams for your prosperity?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.

Monday, February 4, 2013

Holy Spirit you are welcome here

The past few months I've been in a season of persistence and holding my ground. It's been confusing trying to figure out what to do, where to go next, and what God's desire is in the midst of this. I tend to be a bit of an energizer bunny. When I'm called to wait on God and rest until he instructs me forward I find myself feeling lost.

Yesterday I finally came to a revelation which hit me like a ton of bricks. It's like God just downloaded something in my heart that explained part of His purpose for my life.  I can't tell you how excited I am to partner with God and strengthen the areas of my life that need it most. It's so fitting that Stephen and I were just having a heart to heart the other day about stagnant lifestyles and not wanting to be a part of that.

1 Peter 1:14-16So you must live as God's obedient children. Don't slip back into your old ways of living to satisfy your own desires. You didn't know any better then. But now you must be holy in everything you do, just as God who chose you is holy. For the Scriptures say,"You must be holy because I am holy."

I find myself desiring more of God's reign in my life as a wife and mother especially. You and I are both called to live a life of passion for our creator. It's time to stop living dull lives that are comfortable and satisfy our human desires.

Romans 12:2Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

I don't know about you but I want to wake up every morning and INVITE God into my home. I want my life to glorify Him in every way including the tone I set in our home. I want intimacy to be the driving force in why I desperately need God and not the trials or fiery times of this life. Being a homemaker can be discouraging at times because it feels like other areas of ministry are not receiving enough of me. God has shifted my focus to see that our home is our dwelling place. Being a successful mother/wife is NOT defined by having things picked up, dinner cooked, and happy occupants. Through God revealing this to me I've felt like a weight has been lifted off.

There is nothing greater than the peace that God offers. I encourage you to hold firm to Him even when his timing exceeds your patience and understanding.

"Bring Me your weakness, and receive My PEACE. Accept yourself and your circumstances just as they are, remembering that I am sovereign over everything. As you live in the radiance of My Presence, My peace shines upon you. You will cease to notice how weak or strong you feel, because you will be focusing on  Me. The best way to get through this day is step by step with Me. Continue this intimate journey, trusting the path you are following is headed for heaven."

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Baby Pearson #2

Well folks, it's been a long time coming for this ultrasound. I've known I was pregnant for about 3 months now so waiting has been extremely hard. It has been really hard not knowing EXACTLY how far along I am or my due date and today I was HOPING to break that. I left my appointment very disappointed that all they could tell me was that I was 15 weeks. Obviously I knew I was between 14 and 17 so this wasn't really "new" news to me. Running on 5 hours of sleep easily contributed to my meltdown afterward I'm sure. After taking a nap I was able to experience the next flow of emotions. I'm officially happy that the baby is as healthy as an ox and less concerned about everything else I wanted to know.

During all the in depth measuring I seemed to be bouncing anywhere between 15 weeks 0 days and 15 weeks 6 days. My doctor is the one who gets to evaluate the results and give me a new due date. So basically I get to wait another week and a half for a more concrete due date. Stephen and I counted 25 weeks out from today and we laughed when it fell smack dab on his birthday (July 19th). I've been pregnant before so naturally I thought seeing the baby for the first time wouldn't reach me the way it did. The whole time I laid on the table I had a million thoughts running through my head. The hardest thing for me has been not being able to call the baby by name and get that much closer to "knowing" who's inside of me. 

Any way...enough about me. Without further ado I present "Baby Pearson".

P.S. Malachi LOVED watching his VERY active sibling. His words were "awwww it's so cute!"

Friday, November 30, 2012

2nd time's a charm

So as all of you know Stephen and I are currently growing our second child. I have been in awe ever since I found out a week ago and STILL don't quite know how to put it into words. The desire to carry another child has been on my heart for a LONG time as many of my close friends know. Stephen can vouch for how many tears have been shed over the past year thinking I ruined my body and wondering why I couldn't be fertile like everyone else getting pregnant at the drop of a hat.

For anyone who doesn't is an EXTREMELY emotional time hoping/praying for something to happen and having to wait an entire calendar year for it.

The first thought that came to my head after reading a positive pregnancy test was that I was just SO relieved  to know nothing was wrong with me. THEN an overwhelming sense of joy came over me and I probably thanked God for the rest of the day for fulfilling the desires of my heart. There is just something so special about God doing things in HIS timing and also knowing he trusts me to raise and shepherd yet another one of his creations.

Stephen and I both are excited to expand our love, see Malachi grow up with a companion, and find out who God has made this new little person to be. I'm excited to find out the gender but more so just excited for it to be August already.

Something I've noticed this pregnancy that I didn't really go through with Malachi, is how much fear is in our society. I can't believe how much fear and doubt floats around in peoples heads/the internet based on how far along you are. I believe that there are precautions people should take (don't get me wrong) but since when is it a "normal/smart" thing to hide your pregnancy until you know it's a "safe" one? I guess Stephen and I are both just a rare type of people that will believe and celebrate until you give us a firm reason not to.

God is in control of our fate and we don't want to pretend to have a false sense of control with what happens during this pregnancy. We want our friends and family to laugh AND cry with us. So whatever may happen just know we want you to be included! And right now we have every reason to be beyond excited so get excited!

We just want to say THANK YOU to everyone who has shared in our joy and congratulated us. It means a lot to know we have others out there just as enthused as we are!


The Pearsons

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

The best things in life aren't THINGS....

I have a confession...I'm REALLY struggling with the idea of possibly having to get rid of my car. This is one of those 1st world problems that I feel dumb for even being crushed about. In the 2 short months I've had this car I've fallen even more in love with it. I can't tell you how long I lusted after this Volvo before getting one.

As I sit alone this morning, I'm struggling with some hard truths.

I'm frustrated that I'd have to drive the Mazda again but I should be happy we even have the luxury of
owning a car.

I'm ridiculous for wanting to cry over this whole situation right now.

It isn't easy for me to listen to my husband's wishes without wanting to put up a fight so I can get my way.

I'm letting a car define me and my worth....

How did I get here? How do you go from not caring one second to being ridiculously materialistic the next?
In the middle of my funk I've been having the past couple of days God decided to whisper "I can still use this." As non-significant of a problem as this may be, He still wants to work on the matters of my heart through it. Go ahead and laugh that's fine.

I WANT God to use this opportunity to improve my heart and what it longs for. It's painful to lay down my pride and submit to my husband if worst comes to worst. Day after day I'm telling my faithful husband that I want to be a Godly, supportive wife that he's proud to wear on his arm. I'm trying my hardest to view this as an opportunity to become that woman instead of a loss.

I want to be so lost in God that the things that truly matter are what crush me instead. Sometimes I really don't like life... I hate that it isn't fair, I hate that we live in a culture that teaches us to want more of what we don't need, I hate not feeling "cool" because of stupid little things, and I hate that it feels like high school all over again at times. It's becoming very apparent to me that I get sidetracked easily. Time to steer back into my path..yet again.

"Holiness, holiness is what I long for 
Holiness is what I need 
Holiness, holiness is what You want from me 

Faithfulness, faithfulness is what I long for 
Faithfulness is what I need 
Faithfulness, faithfulness is what You want from me 

(So) Take my heart and form it 
Take my mind, transform it 
Take my will, conform it 
To Yours, to Yours, Oh Lord 

Righteousness, righteousness is what I long for 
Righteousness is what I need 
Righteousness, righteousness is what you want from me" 

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Motivation and favorites!


Fact: Black rice is better than brown rice. I am in love with the taste as well!
Egg yolks can have a LOT of cholesterol in them not to mention I hate the taste. Some mornings I will just eat the egg whites by themselves but this way it's kind
of like having deviled eggs without the bad stuff! It's good to have a variety so
you don't get bored.

An ideal breakfast for me.
Protein= 2 egg whites with greek yogurt dip
Whole grains= 1 slice World Market "fitness bread"
Complex Carb= 1 mandarin orange

(other mornings I'll have steel cut oats with berries of some sort
and 1 egg white)

An ideal lunch.
Lean protein= Salsa Chicken (portion no bigger than palm of hand)
Complex carbs= Salad (two cupped handfuls worth) with a little bit of feta sprinkled on
Whole grain/also a complex carb= 1 cupped handful cooked black rice
I usually get my whole grains over with in the earlier parts of the
day (breakfast/lunch) so that my body isn't trying to digest them late at night or when
I'm sleeping. 

So many people out there want to lose weight and not have to
put in the work. Well guess what? THAT'S THE ONLY WAY IT'S GOING TO
COME OFF AND STAY OFF! Getting in shape/ getting healthy is a job and it sucks but the benefits of it
are what's keep you going. You may not be able to run 3 miles at one time let alone one but you still need to try and reach for SOMETHING. There are other
forms of cardio so you have no excuse. Weight resistance and cardio go hand in hand
for fat loss. You may not be able to lift 20 lbs but 5lb dumb bells are still better than
absolutely nothing. Get on Pinterest or Google and search the crap out of free/available workouts
because there are tons out there. You have to want the lifestyle
bad enough to push your self to your one can get you there but you. Support groups are great
but you aren't going to succeed just because you are a part of one. Get in the
mindset and challenge yourself daily! Keep life fun!